Am I angry? A little bit, yes. I know you’re lying to me. And I really wanted to go and now all my plans are messed up…
1) Seriously, you’re just starting drama just because you want money. He already gave you $400, I can see why he said no more. He’s going to school next term, is it really unreasonable to think that he needs to save up money? Honestly, maybe you should get legitimate jobs and stop sending our own money so ridiculously.
2) You’re so two-faced it’s ridiculous. Wow. Just wow.
I can’t wait to get out of here. One more year.
Thinking about university, I can’t believe only one more year till I start.
I’m going to get my bachelor of science and then do something with psychology… I’m sure exactly what yet. Psychologist, psychiatrist, CAP (child and adolescent psychiatrist) or just like a researcher.
The thing about being a psychiatrist or CAP is that I have to go to med school and invest a lot of time and money into it. Like I really don’t want to go into med school and I think if I did, it would be so I could be a CAP. But it’s so long ugh. I don’t even know if I’ll like it. Assuming I get it. What if I don’t get in. They don’t accept everybody or even a lot of people.
And then there’s the whole money thing. If I work a lot this summer and the next, and don’t spend a lot during the school year, I should be okay. I think I’m going to leave less than $150 in my chequeing at all times so I don’t get tempted. So there’s that. And also there’s two scholarships I know for sure I’m getting so that helps. My parents have a savings account for like school but since A. I have to share half with my sister and B. I know my mom has been taken money out of it and C. the fact they won’t tell me how much is in it means that there’s probably not to much money in it so I’m not even counting on that.
I want to take out as little student loans as possible cause they’ll just come back and kick me in the ass, I know it.
Freaking out man. Freaking out.
Strangely enough, I’m not worried about my grades but I should be.
Also I just want to say I seriously enjoy work sometimes. Today was such a good day even with all the bitchy people. I could honstaly say I was happy today hehe
Exams suck. But at least I have two more left and then I’m freeeee! Summer <3
And I hung out with three different friends over this past week, it was very enjoyable. Friend numero uno we watched a movie at the theatre, Friend numero dos we studied and chilled at her house and friend numero tres, we again and chilled at her house and watched episodes of the office (which were freaking hilarious by the way).
I’ve never hung out with so many people in such a short span and it’s already getting me into that summer mood!
But friend numero dos kinda annoyed me today because she was depressed about how she did on our exam today. Like I’m sad because she’s sad but at the same, it’s kinda like you deserved. It’s not like she studied her ass off and still did bad. Oh no. What did she do yesterday? Watch tv all day and went to bed around nine. I went to bed at one in the morning, and my other friend at three studying super hard. I’m sorry but if you wanted to do good, you study. You study ahead of time or you cram. If you don’t make effort, then how do you suppose you’ll do well?
Of course I didn’t say any of this to her because it will probably just make her upset.
I truly enjoy my friends and thoroughly enjoy it when we hang out together. When I’m with them, for a moment I can just bask in the moment and forgot about all the shit in my life. This summer and next year I want to just do everything, take risks and have fun because I know no matter what happens, I will drift apart with some of my friends once university rolls around. Sad but true. It’s what happened with the transition to junior high to high school. Sure for the first few months, you keep in contact but then you start getting busier and you don’t miss them as much and all of the sudden you’re getting more distant.
It’s a depressing thought and I don’t want to think of that now. For now, I’ll just try my best to make the most of the present and not regret everything.
Hey I was wondering if I was special or if you were an over-active liker and now I know my answer. Why do I always build my hopes up so quickly?
ah i forget what I was gonna say nooooooooooooooooooooo
oh I remember now
I really want to make this summer and the last year of high school to count! I want it to be amazing, fun, memorable and full of milestones and good times and just be super amazing. Actually take YOLO into account and takes risks and all that fancy stuff.
I’m going on s-trip (to punta cana!) but it’s in like a year and month so farr
but yeah, I really got to take advantage of this time period because it just goes downhill from here. Thinking about, I understand why the high school years are the best of your life. We have more responsibilities than when we were kids, but most of it lets us have fun. As we get older, we get more responsibilities, like…. bills and, and… being respectable. Ugh ;)
also a month into the hiatus, I turned 16 so go me
I can drive a car and have sex
the other post would be too long if I included my last update on my incredibly boring life but without further ado:
+THE BOY WHO I KINDA LIKE BUT NOT ACTUALLY: I’m still hopelessly in almost like with him. During the hiatus, nothing really happened except for the last week of school. I don’t know what happened but we almost started talking but not really. Like we were playing games and talking smack to each other. I don’t know. Basically what happened is that we acknowledged each other’s presence and climaxed to him sending a friend request me on facebook which isn’t even a huge step at all but it is when you’ve known the other person for two years and have all of her friends and lkjsdlkadlkjad. I’m really sad that classes are done just because we are on a crescendo and now all of the sudden it’s done and it’s not like we contact each other in other way. I don’t go online on facebook and my phone isn’t working if we somehow miraculously did exchange numbers. But my friend is really into his friend and hopefully when they hang out in the summer she’ll be like you come and he’ll be like friend come and then we’ll hang out and become friends. That’s what I really want, is to become friends. Although I think even if we were friends, I would have this silly fatuous non-crush on him. Ugh.